My trama specialist had got cancer and around that time i was in and out of a spiral and couldn't for the life of me keep track of in-person vs online meetings and though I was recommended other specialists , I could not bring myself to speak to any of them. Cause I had 7 years with her. It just wasn't the same.
I can't even imagine what it would have been like to have an abrupt termination. I probably would have become much more unstable than in what was something that I was already aware was going to be happening.
Seven years of shared history doesn't transfer. What forms in that kind of work is particular — it can't simply be handed to someone else. Beginning again with another person, if it ever becomes possible, is a new construction. Not a continuation.
What you describe — navigating all of that while already in a spiral — sounds enormously hard. And yet you found a way to keep going through it. Not because it was easier. Because it was her.
Thank you for bringing this here. It's exactly the kind of lived experience the post was trying to name.
My trama specialist had got cancer and around that time i was in and out of a spiral and couldn't for the life of me keep track of in-person vs online meetings and though I was recommended other specialists , I could not bring myself to speak to any of them. Cause I had 7 years with her. It just wasn't the same.
I can't even imagine what it would have been like to have an abrupt termination. I probably would have become much more unstable than in what was something that I was already aware was going to be happening.
Seven years of shared history doesn't transfer. What forms in that kind of work is particular — it can't simply be handed to someone else. Beginning again with another person, if it ever becomes possible, is a new construction. Not a continuation.
What you describe — navigating all of that while already in a spiral — sounds enormously hard. And yet you found a way to keep going through it. Not because it was easier. Because it was her.
Thank you for bringing this here. It's exactly the kind of lived experience the post was trying to name.